In November 2003, I was drunk, typing
in my journal, and at that time, I hadn’t admitted I was an alcoholic. I thought I was just a problem drinker –
which is also another term for an alcoholic.
I wanted to write about my frustration of not being married and blame it
on someone. In getting prepared to
embark on another move across the country, I wanted to find something that
would repair the gaping hole I felt inside. I thought that if I had the perfect
life of husband, house, dog and child --
life would work out and I would be part of the suburbia landscape with the
general population. It wasn’t until I
got sober that I decided to take control of my life and —be responsible for my
actions. This may in turn answer my
non-married question, but it may not. I
wasn’t involved with healthy people, so why should my relationships have been
healthy with the promise of any future?
When
I originally started journaling my story, I was a year or so sober and by the time I finished it (and worked with an Editor from San Diego) I was 3 years sober. I’m now almost 11 years sober and life is in
session. My story by far isn't the most scandalous, or the raciest or the most sizzling, nor did I end up on skid row, its just a story of a gal that liked to drink a lot and have fun, until the fun stopped happening. I remember so many times saying to myself, "I'm just going out for a couple of drinks". 10 hours later, I'd still be awake and partying. I needed the party to end.
Today life is a bit rosier for me. I don’t need to be
bailed out of a Jail for any DUIs, I know where I am when I wake up in the morning,
and I have a little more self respect and dignity than I used to. This is progress for someone like me. Just because I’m sober doesn’t mean life doesn’t get tough. Good things happen. Bad things happen. They just normally don’t happen on the same
day. And no matter what, I’ve been able to stay sober through all of it. Its not
easy, but as long as I keep doing what I was taught to do by others that walked
before me, I know I’m going to be ok.
So - I do hope you download the book for yourself, or gift it to someone that you think may want to read it or better yet, need to read it. Maybe your babysitter, daughter, sister, friend of a friend?
www.amazon.com/Last-Call-Nancy-L-Carr-ebook/dp/B00T6JDLGQ
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